Well I am RETIRED. I was given a lunch at school and a private party for some colleagues and good friends off campus. After the luncheon on Friday, I came home, laid down on the floor and cried, to say I was depressed would be an understatement. I told my partner that I didn't want to go to the party on Saturday night, but he encouraged me to go. I had a gin and tonic and that helped me over the rough spot so to speak. I was overwhelmed with the the general tone of love and warmth, I really felt enveloped by it. Even the food was good and up to my lofty standards
I received a few gifts and a beautiful Tiffany cock from my colleagues, with this inscription "From the Office of ....,Great Colleague, Better Friend, Happy Retirement.
I was more than touched. For someone who has felt "less then" for most of his life, this was really an amazing thing to happen, peopole validating me, and expressing their love.
We went to Providence for the weekend, just to get away, and we had a great time. Lately any time I spend with my partner seems too be just about perfect. I guess we are kind of yin and yang with each other.
I acknowledged publically at the dinner about being a lucky man, having my partner in my life, being cancer free for 3 years, and having the love and support of all my friends.
Surprise, so far I have ben enjoying my unstructured time. Running in the a.m., coffee with friends, off to the gym for a workout, steam and shower and then to the New York Times...what a great way to start an unhurried day. I decided any apointments that I have to make will be after noon !!!! That is a change. My partner if he's reading this is probably laughing to himself about what a "Bad" influence he has been.
I promise to write more shortly. I always assume no one reads this and am so surprised when someone comments on it.
Leaving this wknd for Tarrytoiwn for a student orientation all wknd, I'm doing this so the students will get to know me and I them. These are the people that I'll be working with on Saturday's.